Sometimes, people just don’t want to be loved.
They simply believe they do not deserve it. The journey has been so long, the road has been so hard, they have received so many jostles and kicks in their face along the road, and they think that it’s just not worth it any more.
Why try reassuring yourself that everything will get better, when all those other times it did not?
How can you believe someone really cares for you this time, when all those other people did not?
All those sharp scissors shining in the darkness. You are so tired of trying to grasp at each distant flickering light, only for it to cut you.
Licking the sweet hot blood and then leaving. Isn’t that what it’s all about?
When the blood tastes of your dreams, and the laughter sobs into nothingness, it’s time for the clock to stop ticking. Time for the axe to stop grinding. It’s time to put your foot down and say ‘YES’… the ultimate prayer. Acceptance, relief, peace.
YES this is what I want. And this is what I will fight for.