Outsider

I don’t know how old I was, when I first became  aware of the bubble.

Crouched in a hollow darkness, I always felt as if I was enclosed in a sphere of shadows. A liquid-like transparent force creating a barrier between me and the rest of the world. In slow motion, I moved within it, out of sync with every one else. Almost matching… almost, but not quite.

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Maybe it was the terror, that harsh violent presence which made me stutter and hesitate, which first created the circular protective barrier. Or maybe it was the cruel indifferent light reflecting off everyone else which first brought it into being. For sure, my awareness of it only strengthened it. My shield. My cage.

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For a time, I believed it had gone. Disappeared with a pop. Finished. For a time, I thought I was here, un-veiled, un-masked, just like everybody else.

Of course, I was wrong.

My bubble is still here. It is dark, dank, comforting. Like an old musty blanket I can clutch around me and slap over my eyes whenever I see something which should not be. I am still here, in a way. But really, I am not. Because I do not want to be. I am not with you. I am not with anyone. And no one is with me. No one looks at me. No one wants to.

In the end, the bubble does not make that much of a difference after all.

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For the Bored… and the curious ;-p

Years ago, back when I first started working in an office, I was hooked on personal surveys and questionnaires. Basically I would look out for and search different ones, fill them up, then send them to all my friends for them to fill up and send them on in turn. Irritating huh? Whatever, I was bored ;p

Anyways, just came up across one in a blog I’m following, and I got backlashed by so many memories, i just had to fill it in. Will you? ;p

50 questions 50 answers.

Work clothes – black trousers and red jumper with a red and black scarf

2: Ever been in love? Yes

3: Ever had a terrible breakup? Yes

4: How tall are you? Around 5’5/6 i think

5: How much do you weigh? no idea… i try not to look at the scales

6: Any tattoos? yes, 3… and more to come!

7: Any piercings? 5 in my right ear, one in the left

8: Ever done an operation? Yes laser surgery, and partial toe nail removal

9: Favorite show? there are too many, don’t think i actually have one fav

10: Favorite bands? Evanescence, Within Temptation, Nightwish, Kamelot, and many other Gothic, Melodic and Harmonic Metal bands

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11: Something you miss? right now… bed

12: Favorite song? JMy Immortal – Evanescence

13: How old are you? 29

14: Zodiac sign? Saggitarius

15: Qualities you look for most in a partner? honesty, trustworthiness, intelligence and kindness

16: Favorite Quote? The fight is not over until you have won it – Robin Hobb

17: Favorite actor? Johnny Depp

18: Favorite color? Black and/or dark red

19: Loud music or soft?depends on my mood

20: Where do you go when you’re sad? To bed or near the sea

21: How long does it take you to shower? Around 10 mins

22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? 15 to 30 mins

23: Ever been in a physical fight? yes though not by choice

24: Turn on? Black leather and long hair

25: Turn off? Arrogance and stupidity

26: The reason I made this blog? To write more

27: Fears? Getting pregnant, being trapped, heights

28: Last thing that made you cry? Dont remember

29: Last time you said you loved someone? Last night

30: Meaning behind your blog Name? ‘Moonsong’ has always been my screen name and ‘Darkly Dreaming’ is inspired by the first novel in the ‘Dexter’ series

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31: Last book you read? The Born Queen – Greg Keyes

32: The book you’re currently reading? Since I finished the last one this morning, nothing yet ;p

33: Last show you watched? One Foot in the Grave

34: Last person you talked to? A collegue

35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted? my bf

36: Favorite food? pizza and tortellini with white sauce

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37: Place you want to visit? there are so many! the whole world!!

38: Last place you were? home

39: Do you have a crush? I have a love ;p

41: Last time you were insulted? weekend before last -.-

42: Favorite flavor of sweet? orange

43: What instruments do you play? used to play piano a bit

44: Favorite piece of jewelry? my pentacle silver ring

45: Last sport you played? volleyball at school lol

46: Last song you sang? something yesterday while i showered, dont remember what

47: Favorite chat up line? I don’t like chatup lines, they’re cheesy.

48: Have you ever used it? nope

49: Last time you hung out with anyone? yest with my bf

50: Who should answer these questions next? Everyone who reads them!!

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Nominated for the Very Inspiring Blogger Award!

Woke up with a nice surprise this morning! Many many thanks to https://astern2991.wordpress.com/ who has nominated me for the ‘Very Inspiring Blogger Award’!! I haven’t been writing in WordPress for long, but I am enjoying myself immensely and it is inspiring me to write more, so I guess I’m doing something right :0) Thanks again.

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Here are the rules of the award:

1- Thank the person who nominated you and add a link to their blog.
2- Display award on your post.
3- List award rule’s so your nominee’s will know what to do.
4- State 7 thing’s about yourself.
5- Nominate 15 other bloggers for the award.
6- Contact your nominees to let them know you have nominated them. Provide a link to your post.
7- Proudly display the award logo ( or buttons ) on your blog, whether in your side bar, ABOUT page or a special page for award’s.

Here are 7 facts about me! (which I’m taking as an opportunity to brag a bit lol)

1 – I have always loved books and always been a voracious and precocious reader. I started to read and fathom Shakespeare on my own when I was 11.

2 –  I entered into my first writing competition, and won it, when I was 14.

3 – I started studying at University when I was still 16. Most students start at 18.

4 – My big dream is (obviously) to write and publish at least a full length trilogy before I die.

5 – I graduated from the University of Malta 4 times, meanwhile studying there (both full time and part time) for a grand total of 11 years. Just because I loved it.

6 – I’ve been a Wiccan since I was 15/16, doing my own self-initiation on a full moon on my birthday when I turned 17, after having studied for a year and a day.

7 – One of the things I pride myself on most, is being a survivor. I’ve been through a lot of pain and betrayal in my life, and I’m happy and proud to say that I am totally self-sufficient and need no one to get on but myself. That being said, I’m very happy to be in love, not because I need a companion, but because I want him.

And here are my nominations:

https://animereviewergirl.wordpress.com/
https://elfkat.wordpress.com/
https://everyonesentitledtomyopinions.wordpress.com/
https://thebookwars.wordpress.com/
http://joylovestravel.com/
http://101books.net/
https://pastpresentfuturetvandfilm.wordpress.com/
https://toofatforabroomstick.wordpress.com/
https://roseladenmagdalene.wordpress.com/
https://incucinaconmirka.wordpress.com/
http://www.steffisays.com
http://girlsheartbooks.com/
https://nosajnawk.wordpress.com/
http://gourmandistan.com/
http://theinquisitiveloon.com/

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