Growing Up

What is fate? If you spend years of your life trying to avoid something, only to have it thrust at you randomly at a turning in the road, does that mean that it was destined in your ‘stars’, or does it simply mean that you suffer from bad luck? Should you struggle, tearing yourself apart in order to escape at all costs, or should you cease swimming against the current, and simply accept it? Would that be defeated resignation, or merely another way of growing up?

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Generally we can control most things about our life – our achievements, our relationships, our careers, yet when it comes to certain things like health, colleagues, coincidental disasters, of just bad luck, there is actually nothing we can do. We can react yes, but as far as running away from those things we cannot change, this is simply not possible. I guess that is what growing up means. We have to simply buck up, and face those challenges which life throws at us, even though all we might feel like doing is just turning away and go grab a drink.

Perhaps it is actually these challenges which forge our character, aiding us to evolve into more capable individuals, able not only to pull through when under pressure, but to actually appreciate the things we have, and the people around us, all the more.

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After all, how can you ever become a better version of yourself, if your life is always easy? How can you learn to manage and survive using your own abilities, if you always find everything ready on a silver platter? How can you trust yourself to be able to overcome ever tougher decisions and issues next time they come up (because at some point, they will), if you don’t already know you can be a survivor, without needing anyone’s help or using anyone as a crutch to lean on?

People may get older, but not all of them grow up. Some remain selfish little children forever, sulking, having tantrums, and playing copycat instead of learning how to simply be themselves, without any need for social approval or metaphorical pattings on the back. After all, in the game of life, it is only we who can decide whether we have won or lost and no one else. We are our own spectators, and the only approval which matters, is ours.

 

Cursed by Technology

Honestly, I must have been cursed at birth or something. Was it a dark sexy fairy like Maleficent? Was it a long nosed evil enchanter like Rumpelstilskin from ‘Once upon a Time’? Or is it just my stupid UNluck?!

Seriously, every year there seems to come a certain period where anything and everything around me having to do remotely with IT starts to crumble into dust. Three years ago my pc’s hard disk had to be completely wiped out after my pc went crazy, A week or two later, my external hard disk just died and I lost like 2 Terabytes of movies and music. Another two weeks later, the hard disk from my Playstation 3 died and I lost all my saved games… what a momentous and unforgettable year aye?!

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Last year my laptop literally started to autodestruct. The letter-keys on the keyboard started to fall out, the speaker got bust, and the screws which connected the screen to the keyboard got dislocated. Apart from the hardware, the software was a mess too. The pc had become really slow and sluggish, and no matter what I did, it never got better. So, after much deliberation and months of saving as much as I could, I bought the Samsung laptop of my dreams. It was just PERFECT and I really enjoyed using it.

It lasted all of three months.

One evening I accidentally poured Fanta (the soft drink) all over the keyboard, and that was that. I killed it. No amount of tries to save it and purge it of all the acid and sugar by any technician could save it, and obviously since it was my fault, no warranty could cover it.

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So, with the help of my dear and understanding bf, I got another one, which is this one.

Everything seemed fine. Until, of course, the warranty expired last month. Now obviously it all seems to be starting again. The battery seems to be dead this time, but it’s not sure if that’s the case yet.

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I actually HOPE it’s just the battery, as I could buy a new one with 75euros and that will be that, instead of having my peace of mind, not to mention all my stuff invaded and raped by gods know who! But… we still have to see *sigh* fingers crossed…

Is it the Curse of Technology come again??

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